i hope you dance

hmm, i love being in highschool. i feel like teachers do less of the shooting of condescending looks and they treat you like you are so much older. im in love with that feeling. well friendwise, ive made amazing ones. AMAZING. they are so supportive and funny. i'm totally in love with life. except today. today sucked ass. i did NOTHING AT ALL. ew. also i almost won homecoming for my grade:D and i'm new. it made me feel amazing. i feel like i need to get new clothes. i hate mine right now. i want new variaty. lalalalala, boredom, got to keep it short. buh-bye

come back to me

HELLO BLOGGERS.
you probably think i fell off the face of this earth:)
but i didnt! YAY? im moved in the new house and in my fourthish week at JCHS? anywho, its quite the cute town. its a smalltown with a bunch of drama, but i think i might like it okay. there are a hella amount of rednecks. baha. but i dont mind rednecks. something ive realized about myself lately is that, i like all certain types of people. really. i dont mind people unless they are just ignorant and straight up STUPID. iv made a huge amount of friends. its amazing.. im actually really proud of myself for making friends so quick. theres one boy; samual oxford:P he is the absolute BEST friend to me, he is amazing times 3284729384723894723409872984238742389. you have no clue. i got mono, he brought me all my work. i get hurt he is always there with a hug. i love this kid, hes like my own brother. there was one love intrest. but whatever. its done. he was amazing, flawless really. he had the most beautiful half smile. oh my lord. but its done, i need to keep reminding myself. he led me on. he had a girlfriend. he told me i was "so pretty" and i made him smile. and now that him and his girlfriend broke up. he isnt even going for me. hes going for some jock girl in my homeroom, now all his feelings are gone. like he never liked me. whatever im cool with it..rec soccer started:P. uhhhhhhh, its so lonely without my brother. i miss him so much. the one thing i had to say was, me and God are finally close. closer than ever. i am finally apreciating the beauty of everything he does. i am moved at youth night every wednesday. i cried at the alter, and me and megan and sydney came up and gave me a hug. i feel like these girls are my family. already, its insane. im so terrified me and my hickory friends are drifting..it sucks..bad. so far month one of jones county=pretty damn good:) much love.

lightennn up, while you still can:)

i've been listening to the eagles((((:
alright so it is MOVING DAY, woohoooo,:/
uhm, well we basically have everything in the u-haul van. and i am sitting in an emty bedroom floor, which is pretty weird and surreal, im not sure what to make of it. but eric's hot friends have been moving all the shit out of our house so, thats a plus;) so, i miss him so much. just knowing hes talking with those other girls makes me as jealous as fuckkkk. and apparently this girl "hates my guts" i dont even know her. shes a jealous bitch just because i dated alex. god..im done with this drama, i just dont want to deal with it, which i dont considering im moving, i cant see how im ever going to get over him, but thats what everyone says isnt it?

no, you'll never be alone

welllll, sorry i havnt blogged in a while, i suck at life:)
anyways moving day is the tenth. im TERRIFIED and anxious. and extremely sad. i mean. im going to miss everyone here soooo friggen much<3 i got home sunday from the mall, and all my best friends threw me this cute surprise pool party:) i almost cried. they made me this huge framed collage(sp) and everything. it was so much fun, then me and andrea and emily took the party to her place ahaha and we spent the night there. went to longhorn and rented monty python, (great movie check it out(:) hmm. DUDE. im going to highschool. i am so excited, and scared. i seriously think i need more responsibility. i cant believe that in four years from now, i will be on my own. its terrifying really. and finally this year, grades become serious. i need to work ten times harder. uhg. welll, im out. sincerely, emilychristineanderson<3

thinking underage

ive got a pocket full of change, im tired of thinking underage. -teddy geiger.
he makes me smile beyond compare.
so i just got back from working and im going to have a night out with my girls.
thats all i need. right now im tired of shit. im ready to let loose.
goodbye.

holy moly:O

woooo. this is like my third blog in 10 minutes, because im lazy and i do not feel like adding more shit to my blogs so i just keep posting new short ones:)
hope you dont mind.
good
well i am superpissed. i MISS HIM and i am extremely jealous of any girl that talks to him. i just want to go slap him in the face everytime he looks at another girl, might i meantion, we arent dating. so its extra hard.yes. most of my blogs talking about "him" are about one certain someone. so.. anyways its been three days since we've been apart and i start crying all the time because i miss him. im such an emotional WRECK! i hate it. i want to hate every girl hes touched. but that wont help at all. no one knows how much he meant to me and how he made my summer. every morning i'd wake up to his sweet texts. and id get butterflies whenever id hear tires in the driveway, cause i knew it was him. no one knows. yes, i have only been hanging out with him for like two months. but he has made my summer beyond amazing. i dont care. time doesnt matter. i care about him just as much as anyone whos known him his whole life.


"Emily Christine Anderson!! So much to say buy so little time befor I fall asleep, ha well hear it goes, we are so close! I love being with you, I love it when you lay on me! I love it when you look into my eyes and I glance into yours, then are lips meet! It's so amazing! When we kiss it's like no ordanary kiss! It feels like I could stay there forever! I miss you soooo much I can't even type how much I miss you. But I hope we can chill soon! I relly want to be with you emily!! When we are togeather I am care free! I feel like I'm at the highest peek in the world and no one can bring me down. I just want to stay with you and hold you forever emily! Now it's like 1am and u never txt me back so I gess you fell asleep! So I hope you read this soon! Ha I love talking to you on myspace ha but damn this is a long ass paper thing haha but to sum it all up I Alex Abbott love you Emily Anderson"

i cry everytime i read that. im so stupid. why cant he feel that way now? its only been a month. what has changed?..

well

just thought i'd say. i am so ready for soccer again:)
i neeeed to get in really good condition or im screwed. yaaaaa.
peace:)

sweet like candy to my soul

well, i knew it was going to happen. but not this soon. he started drifting from me..and so. it happened. once again. it seemed like he didnt give a DAMN about me or anything. recently though just a few days befor it happened. he admitted we were drifting apart but wouldnt do a goddamn thing to fix it. so i told him i was through. and it didnt phase him a bit. he just overcame it. after i broke up with him and after bawling in a corner on my friends shoulder at hickory alive for an hour. ive realized it was for the best. i just dont see how things changed so fast. it was like yesterday that he sent me that amazingly sweet message. and i fell asleep on him while watching the hulk:/ and he said baby to me every other word. and he listened to me sing and said i had the most bautiful voice he'd ever heard. and how he brushed my hair out of my face before hed kiss me. i miss his calluses(sp?) from bmxing, and how i always wanted to give him lotion for it. hahah. and his anxiaty and desire to win my mom and brother over haha. and his love for my big vocabulary. and i miss kissing him goodbye against his car when he went home late at night. that was the last time i saw him. and probably the last time i will ever see him again. wow. i just wrote a friggen novel about someone who doesnt even give a crap about me.

damned if i do ya, damned if i dont.

things are really staring to clear up. im really happy right now. alex michael abbott. he makes me laugh more than anyone. and hes pretty stupid:) but i love him to death. he amazes me. with his chillness:) and his pretty blue eyes:) hahahaha! oh my god. im on the phone with him right now.. hes flossing. wtf? whatta weirdo. :) i love him incredably much. uhhh! we're talking about doing a long distance relationship thing. we'll see. i am just enjoying the summer.and my friends, well i will be visiting them many many times. me and madison have been making plans for me to live with her instead. haha! i love her. and we found a house we like in georgia. idk, georgia looks pretayyyy ghetto. (not in a good way) but the house is beautiful and right across from the highschool.. so..to top it off. i went on a super shopping spree today. bought the frigggggen mall i swear. it was very nice. ;) ahhhh! and i got a 3OH!3 shirt:) yay. its cute. im starting to look at life in a different life. life is a gift. NO ONE sees it like that anymore. im apreciating everything. so far. its working. you should try it too?

im beginning to except that i am leaving. im so freaking grateful for all of my friends here. becuase every ounce of my happiness i owe to them. they have pulled me through childhood. into my teenage years and half way through them. and i am happy with everything ive done. i know theres nothing i can change. i just love it here. i cant believe i ever wanted to leave. especially now since i have found a guy that gives a damn. and i cant believe im going to leave all these people behins. weve made plans on growing up and going to college together. i dont know whats ahead. but now i know my head is on straight and i will make new friends. but i can honestly say, my best friends will always be here in hickory.

your not sorry.

someone bought our house today. so im off to gray georgia. where i know no one and trust no one. in a time where thats what i need the most. no one cares about me. i always get left. alone. i get my heart broken a million times. way too much. im done. i dont even know what to do now. no one gives a damn to try to make me feel better. or chase after me when i leave.

lifegaurds are funny.

haha so! yesterday i was babysitting these three kids and i took them to the YMCA to swim:) so while i was watching them, this superhot lifegaurd that i was like freaking out over walks by me and says "why cant i teach you swim lessons" and winks. AAHAH. :D it made my day. just sayiiinn

new kids on the block had a bunch of hits.

soooo, my momma's bout to get home, and shes taking me shopping:D then im getting home, cassidys over, and were going to buffalo wild wings, and more than likely gonna do some kareoke;) WOOO WOOO WOOO i love summer. and the feeling i get when its summer time. God there is nothing better. than the sun on your back, a song in your i-pod, the wind in your hair, and sand in your feet<3 i want a fun one this year. no holding back. i so want a job. everyone has a job. ughh. maybe i'll get the hook up at chic-fil-a. yay?

freshman

:) graduation. wow. i cant believe i am officially in high school. its about time. woooooooo.

summer has arrived.

wooo! woo! woooo!
its all great except the fact i dont have a freaking cellphone. i hate getting it taken away. i feel so disconnected. so today was eighth grade graduation:D yay. hahah. i hate feeling so old when im so young. its frusterating. but after graduating, i went to madisons. and we hung out with justin biddix. hahah. whos a sweetheart. im surprised he put up with me madison and caroline..we get a little..intollerable(: it was pretty great. so we got back to madisons and watched "he's just not that into you" i swear that movie inspires me to no end. i think i need to listen to it. cause my stupid retarded heart tells me hes mine. ha! he's not. and i doubt he wants to be. even though he told me he loved me last night. im sure it means nothing. and now im so stuck on him any guy that asks me out i see "him" whenever they talk to me. so i cant just date any guy. OH! hahahaha perfect just as im typing this im being asked out. guess what?! i dont know what the HELLL im going to do. i dont think i like him. ughhhh this would be the second time this happened because of stefan. im terrified that today was the last time i'll ever see him. im terrified about the thought of me probably moving. i dont know if i should hold on to my friends more or less now? to be honest im TERRIFIED of my future. im going to have to start ALL OVER AGAIN. i already had to do this two years ago, and now i have a perfect life here. what if thats not the case if i move to georgia? im so confused. im so scared, and i cant focus on anything else. im the most paranoid person ever. but its summer! time to do something spontanious. something to make my summer wonderful.

i miss

his smile . his kiss. his retarded comebacks. his sarcastic personality. and being able to see right past it. his deep brown eyes. his hands helping me play guitar. his kisses in the hallway. his beautiful skin. him

ew.

my throat hurts like a mother:/..so im in mrs. Farris' class. and basically im bored out of my mind. and somewhat scared, because i have a telent show in like 3 hours, and i have strep freaking throat. screw everything. Why do I get strep right before my party, graduation and the talent show. How ironic right? UGH. well i watched titanic last night. and balled my eyes out for an hour. I always forget how emotional that movie makes me. I think it is so strange how things that make me upset, make me happy at the same time. You probably have no idea what im talking about. okay. also this weekend my ex-boyfriend who im still basically in love with texts me. and tells me he still has feelings for me. which should be great right? NOOOO! because he has a new rebound, and aparently hes more into her than me. and he tells me that right after he confesses he still likes me. i mean who the HELL does that? thats so gay. So he leaves me confused and crying with my friends at the mall. Im super-pissed. He tells me that he plans on dating me in the future, but not now. i AM NOT going to be the fruitcup that you grab out of the fridge when you realize the pudding is all gone. if that makes sense? hahahah. so molly and jeff are watching everything im typing:) i'll go. ciao! <3Emily

quotes are cute:)

"shes an artist, a painter actually. you see that face? thats her most famous piece."

"A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality."

im in mr. brothertons class. kelsey just told me no one cares about me:( and laughed. i am in a hopeful mood. mostly because i think i like this guy, im going to the movies with today.
but eh. i dont know. im wondering why school is so gay and boring. i think when i am old and wise and important, i will make school more interesting. maybe that would limit the percentage of hardcore pot heads. i hate being young and unsure about everything. it is very agravating.

you belong with me.

this is hell. hell. im in love with this guy. ive met him once. i just want to stop liking him. i mean. its my bestfriends future boyfriend. how can i feel this way. i want him so much. but she has liked him much longer. but when he huggged me i wanted to just die. i felt amazing and i knew i liked him. so i feel like shit. shes in love with him too. how could you not be? can i pleeassseee find love? i tought that today. then i met this guy. he is the definition of beauty i swear. and hes sweeter than anything ive ever met. of course he was flirting with her. but thats what she deserves..i think. i think i deserve him to though. i want him so bad. im insane ive met him once and im going CRAZY. maybe its all in my head. but why cant i find love now. i need it. to prove to me that life can get better. i nneedddd it!!!

everyones a letdown.

im moving. isnt that fabulous? no not so much. i HATE georgia. it's stupid, and redneck, without the excuse of one farm or a cute cowboy.;) ( i just saw the hannah montana movie) i'll never be too old for disney i swear. i hate this i hate it. Georgia has ruined my life. to top off my horrible spring break. my boyfriend broke up with me. i loved him. and he just dropped me, and he is going to no doubt move on faster than i could imagine. i was just on the phone with him about 5 minutes ago. it was awful to hear his voice, and think. tthis is pointless. this is it. its done. i dont know why he called me. doesnt he want to disconnect himself to make it easier? thats all i want. i want to go far away. to a cute little town with the christmas lights up all year long. and have good down to earth people around me. i want an open field and stars where i can make memories with the love of my life. i want to lay in his arms and have him kiss me under the stars. i want a cute horse that i can get on and take off with. i want a town i can write music in and be descovered in. where is this dream place? cause i want it about now.

ewwwwwwwwwwwwww this sucks beyond compare.
im a day away from leaving for the biggest most amazing event of the year. and im depressed.
im anxiaty prone to everything. and i dont see the point in doing anything without worrying.
there is something SERIOUSLY WRONG WITH ME. i have never been this stressed. i may be moving. im drifting from my boyfriend. i hate watching everyone else not thinking about deep things like i do.

i kind of feel like a slut, oh God. i mean we didnt go that far, but i cant help myself to think a lot of people dont go this far. i was perfectly comfortably with making out with him, so why do i feel like a slut. ugh and hes coming over tomorrow. truth is i dont want him to right now. not tomorrow, before 3 i just dont!!!:/ why is life like this. i love him i really do, hes wonderfully amazing. gahhhh. help??

its a beautiful thing

okay me and this beautiful amazing guy are pretty much "talking" we just talked on the phone for 3 hours:) and he ended the conversation with dream of me tonight:) it practically made me want to kiss him. hahaha. im just scared out of my mind i'll screw something up with him. like if we make out and im bad. ahhahaha. but i need to go into this confident right? whatever, we cliqued. i could tell. he amazes me. but hes older. what if he goes too fast, we're seeing a movie tomorrow. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh im confused and excited, and scared.


i love it:)

ciao

it kills me to say this. but i did it. i broke up with him. we just arnt meant for eachother. hes too immature. i cant do it. and we so different. well im crying and im not even the one that got dumped. isnt that loverly. I feel like a horrible person. theres nothing else to say. i feel like im going to throw up.

who will i be, its up to me.

sooooooooooooo, i totally just woke up from the most amazing nap ever(: haha. i didnt even know i fell asleep. apparantly i got home, went straight to the couch, and crashed:D well something has really been bothering me, and i guess the main point of this is to vent your feelings so..

sometimes i just know i'm never going anywhere. i want this so bad. more than anything. but theres just so many talented musicians out there. HA i'd never stand a chance.but then again maybe i will. not knowing really makes me anxious! its anoying. you never know in the music and i dont have much time. it sounds RETARDED. but it's true, i have to get noticed soon. and i cant believe, my dad turned down that agency. that could have been my ONLY shot. the only one. and i feel like not everyone is fully behind me on this. even though they are more than ever! whats wrong with me?
Me and andrea have officially decided to go to the american idol finally. HAHA. and you can bet yur' bottem dollar:) we will be front row. i dont know hooow we are going to achieve this but, we will. it's bothering me that i have no plans tomorrow! i neeeeeeeeeeed plans, this is crazy. and guess what? i lost my cellphone. pure genious.

stupid, redneck jacobs fork.

okay, i am in desperite need to do something active. ew i hateeeeeeeeeee winter. i never get to play soccer or do ANYTHING i want to do outside. im like a couch potato in the winter, i hate it:/ as of the thing with jake. i just dont know. its not getting better, if not getting worse. today was boring to the extreme. i dont see how we can't make this retarded school any more boring:( first we had some EXTREMELY BORING diognostic crap test in math:/ it was horrible. we also had some assembly for an additional highschool we could go to if we want. it was like a school for health/science. but they showed a project this kid did on suicide. and everyone was wispering and laughing, and like acting so completely immature. sometimes i feel like im more adult than i put off. i was so embarassed to even be a part of jacobs fork.i cannot stand it here.i can barely stand any of the people here, a large majority are sooo immature, and weird, and stupid. i cant wait til foard.


update on american idol: ADAM MADE IT! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

when im with him, im thinking of you?

im so extremely insanely incredably confused. i mean i love him, i really do. hes great. we have a real connection. and i cant think of anything better than his kiss. but still, i have this feeling like there is something missing. maybe i need someone more like me? maybe i need someone else. every guy i see anywhere i start to wonder, what if i was with him? i can't compare this to anything because i feel like im doing him injustice by staying with him. but then on the other hand, i cant stand the thought of us breaking up. maybe i think too much? i dont know. i was home sick today, and this is all i thought about. i see all these couples that have this like DEEEEP emotional connection andi feel like crying. thats all i want. and still i want that with him.










last night me and my family went to visit eric in asheville:) we went to the fiddlin' pig. hahah i swear only in asheville will you have "the fiddlin' pig" on one street, and the mellow mushroom on the other. the two most redneck and hippie places ever. anyways, there was the most talented boy, i have ever seen. i honestly couldnt stop watching him. it was insane. apparently hes been playing guitar since he was three. i promise we had some eye contact;) and he was 15 so dont think im like in love with some 40 year old musician. ahh but he was so cool. i think his name was seth taylor? ah who knows.












on the bright side,
american idol is on tonight:D ahhhhhhhhh hollywood week? hells to the yes.
if adam lambert does'nt win the whole thing, i will question the point of that show.

oh wow.

last night my brother pulled into an old lady's driveway to turn around. Turns out she sent her son out to follow my brother and get his lisence plate number and call thepolice, because aparently a few teenagers a while back were messing around at her house. so i walk out of my room in my pajamas, and there is an officer at my door! i was scared out of my mind haha. luckily my brother is not in trouble:)

just thought id share that

i hate projects, continued.

alright, im officially pissed. this procrastinating thing is ruining my week. now everything is all screwed up, and my teachers are talking about me turning things in late? wtf? well i got my project done, BLLLLAAAAAHHHHHH. hmm heavan only knows if i'll do good. as of parents, no updates. As of my boyfriend, i seriously think i love him. i care about him more than anything, and just the thought of us breaking up brings me to tears. is that normal? well, probably not, so dont answer that. haha. oh my, my best friends boyfriend just asked her to do something with him that is absolutely ridiculous, im going to go send a strongly worded text to him, peace.

check him out. myspace.com/teddygeiger

i hate projects.

hmmm so im pretty sure that setting due date that is the day after christmas vacation is the dumbest thing ive ever heard of. am i right? Goooood Lord, it's especially difficult for a procrastinator. I am really sick of expectations at our school. its pretty awful. mmmhhm. so, this is my first blog. WHOO HOOO:D but im super busy with tying to figure out this project thing so im going to make it very short:) id also like to put it out there that being fourteen and having your parents closer to divorse every day is not an easy thing. it feels like i cant even escape from this. i wonder why im so happy all the time, and i can keep up with this, all i can say is i hope it lasts. we will see.