im so extremely insanely incredably confused. i mean i love him, i really do. hes great. we have a real connection. and i cant think of anything better than his kiss. but still, i have this feeling like there is something missing. maybe i need someone more like me? maybe i need someone else. every guy i see anywhere i start to wonder, what if i was with him? i can't compare this to anything because i feel like im doing him injustice by staying with him. but then on the other hand, i cant stand the thought of us breaking up. maybe i think too much? i dont know. i was home sick today, and this is all i thought about. i see all these couples that have this like DEEEEP emotional connection andi feel like crying. thats all i want. and still i want that with him.
last night me and my family went to visit eric in asheville:) we went to the fiddlin' pig. hahah i swear only in asheville will you have "the fiddlin' pig" on one street, and the mellow mushroom on the other. the two most redneck and hippie places ever. anyways, there was the most talented boy, i have ever seen. i honestly couldnt stop watching him. it was insane. apparently hes been playing guitar since he was three. i promise we had some eye contact;) and he was 15 so dont think im like in love with some 40 year old musician. ahh but he was so cool. i think his name was seth taylor? ah who knows.
on the bright side,
american idol is on tonight:D ahhhhhhhhh hollywood week? hells to the yes.
if adam lambert does'nt win the whole thing, i will question the point of that show.
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