you belong with me.

this is hell. hell. im in love with this guy. ive met him once. i just want to stop liking him. i mean. its my bestfriends future boyfriend. how can i feel this way. i want him so much. but she has liked him much longer. but when he huggged me i wanted to just die. i felt amazing and i knew i liked him. so i feel like shit. shes in love with him too. how could you not be? can i pleeassseee find love? i tought that today. then i met this guy. he is the definition of beauty i swear. and hes sweeter than anything ive ever met. of course he was flirting with her. but thats what she deserves..i think. i think i deserve him to though. i want him so bad. im insane ive met him once and im going CRAZY. maybe its all in my head. but why cant i find love now. i need it. to prove to me that life can get better. i nneedddd it!!!