sweet like candy to my soul

well, i knew it was going to happen. but not this soon. he started drifting from me..and so. it happened. once again. it seemed like he didnt give a DAMN about me or anything. recently though just a few days befor it happened. he admitted we were drifting apart but wouldnt do a goddamn thing to fix it. so i told him i was through. and it didnt phase him a bit. he just overcame it. after i broke up with him and after bawling in a corner on my friends shoulder at hickory alive for an hour. ive realized it was for the best. i just dont see how things changed so fast. it was like yesterday that he sent me that amazingly sweet message. and i fell asleep on him while watching the hulk:/ and he said baby to me every other word. and he listened to me sing and said i had the most bautiful voice he'd ever heard. and how he brushed my hair out of my face before hed kiss me. i miss his calluses(sp?) from bmxing, and how i always wanted to give him lotion for it. hahah. and his anxiaty and desire to win my mom and brother over haha. and his love for my big vocabulary. and i miss kissing him goodbye against his car when he went home late at night. that was the last time i saw him. and probably the last time i will ever see him again. wow. i just wrote a friggen novel about someone who doesnt even give a crap about me.